beering session with nick+brian+anas+aloy+yp+taufiq+jenn+yan+desiree..
superlatively.. they got me an oreo cake with 18 assorted cigarettes [different brands n types hahah]. wtf?
we started sio-ing 3 sticks @ a time.. the only drawback was that they dont exactly look,taste, as refine.. like the determinant of an inverse equation, i shall vanish.. nights.

lisa, 4months n 12days..

7yrs n 50days the time is passin by.. nothin in this world could be.. as nice as u n i.. n how could we break up like this n how could we be wrong.. so many years.. so many days.. n i still sing my song.. now i run to u like i always do when i close my eyes i think of u.. such as a lonely boy such a lonely world when i close my eyes i dream.. i'll reuturn to u like i always do when i close my eyes i tink of u.. such as a lonely boy such a lonely world when i close my eyes i dream.. of u.. 7yrs n 50days.. now just look @ me..

i close my eyes when i get too sad, i close my eyes when I get too sad, i think thoughts tt i know are bad, close my eyes and i count to 10, hope it's over when i open them.. i want the things that i had before, like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door, i wish i could count to ten, make everything be wonderful again..

sometimes I feel, like I am drunk behind the wheel, the wheel of possibility, however it may roll. give it a spin.see if you can somehow factor in. you know there's always more than one way, to say exactly what you mean to say..
was I out of my head?
was I out of my mind?
how could I have ever been so blind?..i was waiting for an INDICATION. it was hard to find. don't matter what i say only what i do. i never mean to do bad things to you, so quiet but i finally woke up, if you're sad then it's time you spoke up too..

u, doing that thing you do. breakin' my heart into a million pieces like you always do.
n u, don't mean to be cruel. u never even knew about the heartache.. i've been going through..n i try and try to forget you girl.. but it's just so hard to do.every time you do that thing you do..

don't stray.. don't ever go away. i should be much too smart for this. u know it gets the better of me. sometimes. when you and i collide, i fall into an ocean of u. pull me out in time. don't let me drown. let me down. i say it's all because of u.. n here i go, losing my control..im practicing your name.. so i can say i tto your face. it doesn'tseem right, to look u in the eye. let all the thingsu mean to me, come tumbling out my mouth.indeed it's time.. tell you why, i say it's, infinitely true..

it's turning out just another day. i took a shower n i went on my wayi stopped there as usual had a coffee and piewhen i turned to leavei couldn't believe my eyes
standing there i didn't know what to say
without one touch
we stood there face to face........
i was dying indside to hold you
i couldn't believe what i felt for you
dying inside i was dying inside
but i couldn't bring myself to touch you
you said hello then u asked my name, i didn't know if i should go all the way. inside i felt my life have really changed. i knew that it would never be the same.. standing there i didn't know what to say.. first time looked away when i whispered your name. one hello changed my life. i didn't believe in love at first sight.. but you've shown me what is life n i now i know my love.

dennis the lemon puss is makin a din that i should update my wonderous blog.
why?.. just 'cos he's bored in down under. so.. id est, this in specie, is indicatively just for you.

frm sat 10:49..
i received a total of 70sms from my lisa wisa mona lisa tai tai puddle n pie booboopoopoobahbeeboo.
on sunday 22:52..
i talked to her for an hr..

HAHAHAH.. suck it brother.
brother, i'm intrepid that u dont communicate with the goreng pisang as much.
least you still have those guest books..

night brings our troubles to the light, rather than banishes them.
i'm progressin back to my bed.
nights.

13june. hv's el dante watchin euro2004
neil + cliffy + ben + mike + uncle charles - lisa

14june. hv kopitiam watchin euro2004
neil + cliffy + ben + mike + uncle charles + leslie chihuahua + druggie + nafis - lisa

15june? as expected.. everyone else - lisa
life's indeed not at all of any morality substance.
solitariness that is.

HAHAH.., i know what ure thinkin.
go away.

i feel abit happier. tickled pink.. i managed to talk to her last night. not for long though. but still.. for 1, that's the voice i exceedingly wanna hear. for 2, the idea that several of you had the 'rights' to idealically criticise, will be completely illegitimate.
Not that i frown on those who come to libertarianism, too much of it is sick. neil,randy,dennis.. see this do u 3?

other things besides her ur want me to divulge abt?
permit me to talk abt the last 5days.
sat~ newton supper neil+dennis+exo
sunday~ cecil stayed over my place
monday~ chinablack / cecil still @ his hotel..
tues~ newton supper neil+cecil+dennis
wed~ dr6 kopitiam supper desiree+yp+aloy+ray ... oh, n tragus piercin`. i had neil,randy,dennis,dawn,ulynn,sally,cindy,fiona see me squirm. lucky me to haf them ard rite? with dawn fleatingly tryin to capture nature @ its best..
thurs~ changi village supper / peter, sorry i can't make it to ur party. as a compensation.. MANNIE : I LOVE PETER
the rest of the evenings spent in town. tmr will be indifferent.
nothin' interestin rite?
so.. back to her.

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who'da believed that you were part of a dream?
Now it all seems light years away

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well I'm finding it hard leavin' your love behind me

wonderin y no entry?

theres nothin to talk abt.

lisa's gone.

nights.

1145pm. newton circus hawker.
'auntie ar, teh sua'

this time rd. its neil dennis exo n i. soon after, desiree doug n matt came down. bein a besmirched child, i realised i need a kopitiam auntie in my hse. especially when sch commences in a month. i wld be rather tired. tt wld be great. hmm!.. towering.

anyhows.randy thank you fer ur kind comments. cordial tt is. love u to bits. though theres not much left of u.-> pardon the poor pun.-> quite gd actually. thx victor/neil/desiree/uylnn/mich/dennis.. ya i remembered cos i famoused it. quoted frm friends.

i love friends. watched every season,every episode. jennifer aniston as rachel green. courtney cox arquette as monica gellar bing. lisa kudrow as phoebe buffay. matt le blanc as joey tribbiani. matthew perry as chandler bing. david schwimmer as ross gellar. not forgettin james michael taylor as gunther. apologies fer this palaverous shit. im afraid i will forget their full names. so shall their celebrated names, leave their spots here.

im fuckin happy today. i haf nvr been this happy fer months. lisa called @ 1+. it was certainly a bliss. delighted, blissful, blithe. WAIT AR LET ME GO GET MY BROTHER'S THESAURUS. blessed. blest, can't complain, captivated, cheerful, chipper, chirpy, content, contented, convivial, ecstatic, elated, exultant, flying high, gay, glad, gleeful, gratified, hopped up, intoxicated, jolly, joyful, joyous, jubilant, laughing, light, lively, looking good, merry, mirthful, overjoyed, peaceful, peppy, perky, playful, pleasant, pleased, satisfied, sparkling, sunny, thrilled, tickled, tickled pink, up, upbeat.
spent 1/2 an hr or so vocalising abt the most common of things. however, after the conversation, i felt tt i was spendin too much time talkin abt myself.im sorry lisa. i hope this sensational fanstasy will reoccur everynight. they say.. to achieve the impossible dream, try going to sleep. nights..

pause pause.. this song's perfect fer this night.
I'm on the -- top of the world lookin'
down on creation and the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found, ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

oh i miss my mummy

11pm. drive6 24hr kopitiam.
'auntie ar, ho wa zi bao dunhill lights ka teh sua'.

sat down @ our favourite spot. away frm the bustling hullabaloo crowd. yp aloy n i. we all had our problems. thinkin abt them all. i feel they are fragmentary, patchworks of autochthonous and foreign elements. complications. entanglements. like an italian proverb saying 'at the end of the game,the king and the pawn go back in the same box'. well said italians. problems come n go. but new ones always do resurface. lisa.. n now.. my favouritest teacher, jean yeow, who's down wif typhiod. so. now. acquiesce me to blog abt these 2 ladies.

lisa..

when u n i collide.i fall into an ocean of u.pls..pull me out in time girl.dont let me drown.let me down.i say its all becos of u.n here i go,losin my control.im practisin ur name.so i can say it..to ur face.nono,it doesnt seem right.to look u in the eye.let all the things,that mean to me.come tumblin out of my mouth.say u'll stay.dont come n go, like u do.sway me way.yeah,i need to noe.juz all abt u.

(And) i was dying indside to hold you
i couldn't believe what i felt for you
dying inside i was dying inside
but i couldn't bring myself to touch you

jean yeow..

u may be in alaska now, but u will always secure a place in my heart.this teacher made a colossal impact in my life.grandiose.?monumental.?just before she left to visit her dad, she sent me 3sms long msg twice.there's this mutual understandin b/w us. she may be only 10yrs older, but this lady has my utmost respect.she made a celebrated difference in my studies.no shit.she really did.when i discovered she fell ill.. tears, idle tears, i know not what they mean. tears from the depth of some divine despair.. rise in the heart and gather to the eyes, in looking on the happy autumn-fields, n thinking of the days that are no more. days i had in cj. i left lisa n jean behind.jean.. may i wish u the best of health.really hope u recover soon..

read this article headed ' revisionism as the ultimate cause'
historians.. lets hiss away.

in the spring of 1966, murray rothbard’s left and right carried an editorial describing cold war revisionism as the major historical task of the day. rothbard saw e struggle between e ‘official’ state-sponsored versions of history n revisionism to be one of e utmost importance.

today, e importance of revisionism is unchanged. e history taught to the nation’s students in the state’s schools is flat out wrong. my generation is coming up ignorant of the history of this nation and the world. nearly everyone simply accepts what he is taught without any thinking or analysis.

revisionism is important because it takes e ammunition from those who seek to enlarge the state. ard memorial day, we are bombarded by reminders from statist historians tt those men who served their country during wartime were fighting to secure our freedom. they invoke the images of Lincoln, Wilson, FDR, and Reagan in an effort to support the state’s most recent war. if we allow these propagandists to go unchallenged in their interpretation of our history, we doom ourselves to a defeat in e war of ideas.

this memorial day, we see a perfect example of this invocation. e herald tribune, which ran a column yday on the current war in iraq and the war for southern independence. steyn writes,

u think Iraq's a quagmire? lincoln's ''new birth of freedom'' bogged down into a centurylong quagmire of segregation, denial of civil rights, lynchings. Does that mean the civil war wasn't worth fighting? tt, as al gore and other excitable types would say, abe q. lincoln lied to us?

his version of history has been taught in schools for as long as public schooling has existed on a large scale. be it singapore or america alike. cos his is the orthodox view of history, this column will serve as a resounding reminder of our moral purpose to a majority of the public.

And this is precisely why revisionism is so important to the cause of liberty. were the public educated on the causes, effects, and historical implications of the War for southern independence? actually, hmm.. no. this article would not resonate with anyone. it would likely be ridiculed and laughed at by most people if they knew the truth about that horrible war. instead, it will re-affirm the belief in bush’s war. we cannot allow this to continue if we hope to ever win the war of ideas.

hence, in exact context, ascribing in today's jerm's life, is actually how im starveling fer the one i desire. u noe who urself.